June 17, 2011

Matthew

Matthew, age 3
Virginia Beach, VA (1992)

As a kid, I fondly remember the memories I have of playing with my Barbies.
I loved girly things, and I was always carrying my dolls around with me in my big pink Barbie suitcase. And my first love was the Black Power Ranger.

I didnt realize I was different until 4th grade, when a boy called me gay. And he stole my innocence that day.

I didn't like myself from then on, well until I was around age 16.

If there is one thing I could tell myself back then, and other young gay kids now, it is this:

Love yourself, and be who ever you want to be. Because until you love yourself, how can you expect anyone to love you back? It's hard, but dry those tears - it does get better.

One day you to will find someone who loves you exactly as you are.

Looking back on this photo, I'm proud. I'm proud I wasn't afraid to express my love for beautiful things, just as I'm not afraid to express it now.

I am me, myself, and I - and I was born this way after all.

Now, I'm in my 20's and I'm engaged to marry my partner.
And he's my personal Power Ranger now! :)

Matthew's first, famous-person same sex crush:
Walter Jones (the first "Black Power Ranger")
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4 comments:

CØ⋀L ØP⋀L said...

YOU ARE SO CUTE AND IF IM NOT MISTAKEN, YOU AND I ARE THE SAME AGE HONEY.

thegayte-keeper said...

I remember playing with my sister's dolls and tea sets.

Marcos Fernandes said...

It's so sad when you say "And he stole my innocence that day". You're so cute, Lucky power ranger guy to have you.

Noury Lizarraga said...

Noury Lizarraga - Argentina
Hi Mathew Im so shocked right now, like you and I look exactly the same, not kidding do you have any e mail direction or sth? im adopted (gay) and I always wondered If I had a brother, Im 20 now, excuse me for this but we look the exact same my emial is nourymicha@hotmail.com