Glenrose, TX (1995)
This picture was taken at Dinosaur Valley State Park in Glenrose, Texas.
I found it a few years ago, and my first thought was, "I look like such a girl!"
I wanted a GoGo My Walkin' Pup - basically a girl's robotic poodle. Amazingly, they bought it for me!
I've known I was different since age 3, but I don't think I'd ever heard the word 'gay' until 14. And I wouldn't admit to myself that I was until 20.
And in Texas, we didn't talk about gay people, unless to call someone a f*g. Throughout middle school, that someone was usually me.
I came out to my family at 21, and they couldn't have been better about it.
Everything is so much easier now that I've gotten out of my own way and allowed myself to be the man I was born to become.
Today, I'm sort of a mixed bag kind of gay. I like being athletic and working out, but I also like quilting. My main passion is being as limitlessly creative as I possibly can, and I've written seven books to date. One is about my experiences growing up gay in rural Texas.
If I could say one thing to anyone questioning themselves, it would be this:
In a contest between your head and your heart, always follow your heart.
Your head is subject to the opinions of the most charismatic person you meet.
But your heart is always the purest, most undiluted voice of who YOU really are.
Alex's first, famous-person same sex crush:
Austin St. John (the Red Power Ranger)
Also check out "My First Gay Crush Blog"