New Philadelphia, OH (1987)
As a kid, I was a little odd. I liked girly things to an extent. I was okay with dresses, but not jewelry. I liked dolls, but I preferred crafty creative endeavors more. I guess it was kind of telling that when playing with Barbie dolls, I always had two Barbies living together, with no Ken around. Ken was just not interesting or necessary to me.
one of my early role models/loves. The Spice Girls were a major obsession, too. I had a new favorite member every few weeks.
And Gwen Stefani back in the
No Doubt days was the love of my life. These women plastered my bedroom walls in high school.
I got teased pretty bad in high school.
I was called a slut, a dyke, a freak.
I cut off all my hair in 10th grade, and wore crazy thrift store clothes. That probably didn't help much, but
I liked looking that way.
I always kissed girls but dated guys, and I tried really hard to make those relationships work.
I thought there was something wrong with me, as I was so unhappy. I spent years in therapy and on medication, thinking I was somehow essentially broken and would never find that spark of joy in my life. I drank heavily and used drugs and hated myself.
Finally, now, at age 27, I have the most amazing, beautiful girlfriend I could ever ask for. I finally feel like the missing piece has been found.
There was never anything wrong with me, I was just trying to fit into a place that wasn't meant for me. I don’t know what my future holds, but I finally found happiness. And I know I'm just fine the way I am.
Darcy's first, famous-person same sex crush:
Soleil Moon Frye (as "Punky Brewster")
Also check out "My First Gay Crush Blog"