Lille, France (1995)
I was the weird boy of the school who didn't play football, and who spent his time drawing or reading. I even had Barbie dolls.
I first realized that I might be gay at 13. I felt things for boys before, but never thought I might be gay.
When I was sure I was gay, I wanted to die. I felt ashamed and disgusted. And I swore I would only date girls.
But at age 16, and pretty sure I wasn't gay? I fell madly in love with a guy!
I was feeling so good, I knew it couldn't be wrong. However, after being rejected by this guy who didn't love me back, I finally started to come out. I first told my friends and then my parents. They were very supportive, and I feel very lucky.
Today, I am out, gay, and proud - and I love it!
And PS: I still love wearing this hat, and I still think cowboys are so sexy!
Eric's first, famous-person same sex crush:
The two guys kissing in Christina Aguilera's "Beautiful" video
Also check out "My First Gay Crush Blog"