September 19, 2011

David

David, age 3
Fresno, CA (1977)

I think I knew I was "different" around age 4 or 5. I liked being around the girls in school more than the boys. As I got older, I would be teased and called "f*g" and "sissy". I didn't know what that meant, but I knew it didn't make me feel good.

When I finally did discover the meaning of those words, I tried to deny it. But my love of Chinese jump rope and my Smurfs lunch box gave me away. Also, I had a strange fascination with Tom Selleck and Lee Horsley, and their hairy chests.

As I got older, I'd spend my free time in my bedroom with a t-shirt on my head and lip-synch in my mirror to Cyndi Lauper and Madonna songs. Occasionally, I'd throw on a pair of my mom's pantyhose and strut around the house.

My mom would laugh and say,
"You sure would make a good girl!"


Now as an adult, I'm almost 37-years old, I've been with my husband Richard for 18 years, and we have a good life. Mom lives with us now, and I ran across this picture while digging around in her closet. My grandmother was the one who took me to this photo session. In fact, she's the one who styled me and picked out the "Mary Had A Little Lamb" book I'm holding.

I look at this picture now, and I can see the beginnings of the man I am today.
I live my life openly and freely and I am blessed to have family and friends that accept all of me. Especially the "little girl" that still exists in this photo.

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2 comments:

thegayte-keeper said...

Proof that you weren't made you were BORN this way!

Just Two Chicks said...

Cute picture! I've been guilty of telling my son he would make a great girl. Hmmm... Oh well!